[ManyTimesBlessed]

I don't have any advice, but I just wanted to tell you that what you are feeling is normal. We decided to adopt and actually knew who our child would be, but I still spent some time after that mourning the birth child that I thought we would have. I wanted the child we are adopting very, very much, but I still grieved the loss of having a pregnancy and getting to know my child from the very first day of his/her life.

Don't be too hard on yourself about grieving the loss of your baby. Just because you are sad doesn't mean that you don't love the children you are adopting.

I'm not sure what you should do about the shower. I suppose it's too late to have it moved a few weeks later? I wonder if you also may feel some closure after your due date passes. Maybe it will be a little easier then.

I am so sorry for you loss. I just said a prayer for you that God would give you comfort and help you find peace.

Sincerely,
Rachel