thank you all for your words of encouragement, advice, help and so on. we have a boy he is 3 the little boy who is up for adoption is one he just turned 1 a month ago!
we can do it im just scared. we have made arrangements to meet with him in a couple of weeks. truth is i really want to do this i just dont want to get in over my head but i guess if i some how ended up pregnant right now i would just go with it and love all my kids just the same. the other part is we have to see if he will bond with us or not so its not just our decision. anyway you all made me feel better and this is a great problem to have. thanks again and after our visit i will update you all
luv