[mcnay1]

Hilery, Your feelings are not weird or abnormal. You might always have these feelings, and that is totally ok. You will learn to deal with them. I struggle with all this as well right now. My best friend just had their first child and I didnt think I could get through those 9 months but, I just kept telling myself that one day we would have our little guy in our arms and that this was God's plan. It doesnt make it any easier, but it does give it some justification. Allow yourself to grieve and feel the way that you do. I find that once I have a good cry, then I can cope and deal with it a bit better. Hang in there and keep thinking about having your little girl in your arms...
Katy