ashlee
I can imagine how lonely you feel at the moment. You have this life growing inside of you - you don't think you can parent - you don't know how to tell those who love you - and you have to make some big decisions fairly quickly.
I too was in that position 35 years ago - and I made my decision on my own. I wouldn't recommend that; not in today's world anyway. I really think you need to talk to your Mom. Sure she will be disappointed. but not necessarily in you - more for you. Talk over your options and allow her to support you in your decision-making. It's too big a burden to handle on your own.
Your mother is the one who cares for you and loves you - despite all the mistakes and errors - it's called unconditional love. And....she would want to be there for you for the good and the bad times.
Take deep breath's and know you are not the first (or the last) person who has found themselves in this position - and we all eventually come through it, a little more cynical perhaps, but definitely beter people.
My heart goes out to you. Contact me if you need to. I am a birthmother and also have a daughter a little older than you, so maybe I can be of help.
Ann
