[swsoutherlands]

Last night my husband admitted that while he thinks we're making the right decision, he's sad that to see them go. He said that he's enjoyed coming home more because there's always one of the three kids who wants to see him. Our bio daughter has always been a momma's girl and that's been hard for him. Our foster daughter knows that too and has "targeted" my husband as hers in reaction.

I feel more peaceful about it today though I don't know how we'll handle the actual leaving process. And I have no idea when that will be. I sure hope that our next placement feels much better and has much less guilt than this one. I never expected how many times I'd feel like a loser for having such a struggle with this one.