Baby girl won't be coming today because they didn't get the court order in time but should be coming first thing tomorrow morning.
I don't dare hope for a long term placement. OUr motivation is to help children but I desperatly want to adopt. I spoke with the worker and this does not sound as if it will be a long term placement. A cousin is very interested in the baby so....here we go again preparing for the heart break already. I almost said "no" when I found out. They don't have a single home that is certified and will take a newborn and here I am with empty arms. I said a little prayer and felt good about it so here we go again. This really is a rollercoaster ride!
The baby was born December 24th at 32 weeks. Mom is "nuts" and has drug problems. That is about all I know about the mom, other then she has no home and has been living in the hospital refuses to speak with the social worker and thinks she is taking the baby home. Grandma has 4 of her children and can't take another baby. Baby was 3 pounds at birth. The worker was awesome! She told me everything about the health of this baby. She doesn't seem to be drug affected and is doing really well. She is AA and they don't like to place AA in a caucasion homes but since they are desperate they called me.
Talk about God working. Just this morning I was talking with my MAPPS instructor who is also over homefinding. She was trying to find a home for 3 caucasion children and said that she would have to place them in an AA home. I actually don't think that would be a big deal so long as its a good home. SHe explaiend that she really tried to place AA children with AA families and Caucasion with Caucasion (sorry don't know the abbreviation for caucasion). I totally agree with that due to the culture, hair, skin, food issues. She said it gets difficult. I told her if you ever do have an AA placement and you can't find an AA family please consider us. I explained that while I realize it is not the most ideal situation we spent 2 years volunteering at an orphanage in the Caribbean and took care of many African/Caribbean children. There is so much I realize in considering a biracial adoption or placement and all of it is regards to the children. I've really worried and put a lot of thought into this. We were offered a baby in the Caribbean but due to laws were not able to adopt him or we would have...so this is something that I have read and researched extensively and if I felt it was right for the child we would do this in a heart beat. I tried to stress our openess to a biracial placement or adoption in our homestudy but it really isn't on there. So not more then 2 hours later I get the call for this baby. It really had to be God working. However, I really feel this baby is going to go to the cousin after what the worker said to me.... I keep thinking if it is meant to be we will have a permanent placement if not that child was not for our family.
I'm still thinking about the baby I said goodbye to on Tuesday and I'm still crying off and on about her situation.
Another bit of news. Social workers requested us for the placement of the 3 children even though they aren't in the city we are close to-they wanted our home because they heard how well we cared for our first placement and said they didn't care if it meant a long drive to visit us
. I can't help but think all these temporary placements will lead up to our baby
. I feel like I'm "networking".
L