I dont like the feeling of entrusting my children's hearts into the hands of someone that might not value what they have been given, and discard the trust so carefully grown.
I dont like the fact that no matter how hard I TRY, I cant force a first parent to desire a "relationship" with my child.
And I really dont like having to justify our choices to other family members who just dont get openness in adoption - especially when their reasons, in our situation, sort of make sense
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Jen