[ncdoppler]

Okay, I'm starting to panic! I go back to work on Thursday, only part time, 2 days one week, three the next. I'm concerned and am not sure if Maddox is ready or not. He had a two hour trial run this week. He seemed fine, I stayed for a few minutes and then left while he was busy playing. I didn't want to say goodbye as I figured it would upset him more and he maybe is just too young to understand. I left and the daycare provider said he played for about 20 minutes and then realized I was gone and began to cry and cry. She picked him up and told me he fell asleep in her arms, . He NEVER does this! I'm not sure if that is true or not, I have no reason not to believe her I just find it very strange! He never does that, in fact he will only sleep in his crib or in the car on a long drive.

The past few days he is very clingy!! Only wants Mommy, crys when I leave the room, etc. I have been spending less time with him as I have been running around and leaving him with Daddy, etc. I mean I'm talking being gone 2-3 hours tops, and half that he is napping.

I'm just concerned I don't want to traumatize him or make him feel abandoned. I know having the interaction with other children is great for him. I need to work! I mean, my check is small but takes care of our car payment and 2-3 small bills a month. Now my check will just pay the car payment and daycare! I have it great where I work too! They actually made this work schedule for me. I used to be full time M-F, when we decided to adopt they agreed to hire someone else part-time to job share with me because they didn't want to lose me. I would hate to leave after all they have done, not to mention, I need the adult time too!

I guess I just don't know what to do. I know it's not just me because my husband is concerned too! We just have such a good routine and attachment for being home only 2.5 months, I just don't want anything to change. Since this is my first time as a parent, we just worry about everything!

My gut is telling me he is not ready, but quite honestly I don't know if he ever will be! Is it just me or have others felt this way? If I had it my way, Maddox would not go to daycare, I would some how stay home with him wether it was by doing inhome daycare myself or whatever. If he did stay home I would arrange playdates and different activites so he could still get the interaction with other children.

How long do you try daycare before either enough is enough or things work out?

Am I worrying about nothing?

Thank you!
Nichole