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I waited to reply to this post and I am not sure why. I guess it is because I am having a hard time right now.
I decided to adopt due to infertiity reasons. I did run through ALL of the options medically. I have never been more bruised physically and emotionally. After 22 cycles, 2 surgeries and a whole heck of a lot of money, I was midway into a cycle and simply could not bring myself to let anyone stick me again. The progesterone injections gave me the most aweful sciatica (sp) ever. I was just miserable and couldn't do it. I no longer had that hope you can begin to feel during a cycle. It was all doom.
I decided that day to adopt and started researching agencies. I found one and it took me only 5 months to complete both my homestudy and dossier. My son was home 4 months later. Fast, I know. I feel an overwhelming amount of sadness for those here and elsewhere who have faced obstacles I can not even imagine. And, now that I am considering having another child in the next couple of years, I am terrified. I simply do not know which way to turn this time. The prospect of infertility treatments again... The prospect of waiting months...years to get a child home, or losing a child... I am at a loss. What is the right direction to take these days?
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I believe that if you look in my eyes and judge me because I am different than you, you will one day have to look in the eyes of the Lord and tell Him why you thought you had the right to judge at all...
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