[LisaCA]

dh and i lived together in a happy childless state for 20 years before dd showed up. we realized that our life had changed before dd showed up-we'd already nested, so there wouldn't be that much change, lol. but then we were pretty boring. we did vacation in mexico at least once a year, I traveled whenever I wanted for my job, dh too, we were planning a trip to africa before dd showed her cute head. So now we go nowhere without her. I can remember my life before dd, but I was bored with it, ready for a change. I for one was happy to have dd show up-of course i really miss a few things, like looking nice (boy, did I look nice!), nice jewelry (no earrings or rings, or necklaces for that matter.And dd wears my scarves so I never actually have them around my neck), great shoes, oh and shopping for myself,gosh I do miss that! Purses-I have some great purses that look totally sharp but don't have a bottle holder, lol.

but it's all really cool. caught myself singing a baby song today, an earworm of "these little piggies go wee wee wee, all the way home..." so sad, but great too.

one thing I was not prepared for was watching dh turn dumber than dumb. After 18 months the man cannot remember to check her diaper and is indignant when it won't absorb gallons. That adjustment is harder than I thought. I have come to terms with the realization that dh checks his brain in his work desk before coming home, lol. Whether he'll ever become comfortable with making instant oatmeal without asking me "how much oatmeal?", "how much water?" and "how long in the microwave?" is anyone's guess. he is great with her, a good complement to my harda#@ personality. I guess if I changed the diaper and oatmeal thing, then it would probably change the good things too.

don't worry, it wouldn't be normal if you weren't having second and third thoughts .

lisa