[scarlet52698]

Ditto what others have said. Those first couple of months as a new mom you find yourself just trying to do everything "right". Your body is out of wack, hormones are crazy, and you have this little person who depends on you for everything. It can be very overwhelming.

I parented twins 15 years after placing my son. I was so upset with myself because I couldn't get them to smile at me. They were just happy to check out the ceiling fan while I fed them. I worried constantly about who I had picked up first last time. Who got changed first last time, etc.

I was plagued with nitemares about someone taking them away which didn't help my state of mind much either.

What worked for me was constant snuggling and holding them. Breathing in that sweet baby smell and reminding myself that "yes, this is real.......and yes these babies are mine forever".

I talked about how I felt with people I was close to and tried to be kinder to myself. All of my fears and feelings were so normal as a new mommy.

Hang in there sweetie, it will get better soon.