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Originally Posted by Kimmisue

Tracey,


I hope you won't give up. I'm afraid if we gave up I'd do that constant wondering thing. Are you still with that same agency? Can you stay with them and work with a 2nd, maybe someone who doesn't make you pay all fees up front. That's we we did. We pretty much paid for the 2nd adoption, but then found another agency that would let us sign on for a low fee with no placement fee until placement. I know, kinda stupid to pay another agency when we'd pretty much already paid one agency, but I had to do SOMETHING.

Prayers to you with your decision! Good luck!

Kim

Kim, one of the things that I constantly turn over in my head is whether I will be able to find peace if we decide to stop, or will I be haunted by "if only". On the flip side I am so 2 @$*! emotionally tired and I would love to think about something else for a change. I hate feeling like I am living my life on pause, waiting for something to come through so I can nail down a direction in life.

As for our agency, yeah sad to say, we are still with the same agency. Looking back I can see that it was a HUGE mistake putting so much faith in them. If only we had seen the light earlier, we have wasted so much time with them. Right we now are staying with them simply because we would need them if we get things moving with the facilitator that is on the west coast (we are on the east coast). Technically this would enable us to work with two agencies at once, but at this point, if a placement came through our original agency both Dh and I would keel over from severe shock. As for the money, if we give the go ahead to the new faciliatator we would have to shell out a substantial sum of money. On one hand I want to take the chance, on the other I wonder if we would be simply throwing the money away on a lost cause. Sorry, I am not real positive about all of this right now. I am definately in the whine, cry mode.

Thanks for the words of support. I wish you well on your quest too.
Tracey