Tracey,
I hope you won't give up. I'm afraid if we gave up I'd do that constant wondering thing. Are you still with that same agency? Can you stay with them and work with a 2nd, maybe someone who doesn't make you pay all fees up front. That's we we did. We pretty much paid for the 2nd adoption, but then found another agency that would let us sign on for a low fee with no placement fee until placement. I know, kinda stupid to pay another agency when we'd pretty much already paid one agency, but I had to do SOMETHING.
Prayers to you with your decision! Good luck!
Kim
