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Originally Posted by Emster
We play nice with others, don't run with scissors and say please and thank you at the appropriate times. Generally we don't talk with our mouths full.
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You made me laugh! You forgot that you have a GREAT sense of humor, too!
Well, I think it's the day. I woke up feeling bleak. I'm doing better now. And hope I can offer you some comfort.
I know how you're feeling, as far as asking what's wrong with us? Why aren't we good enough? What did we do that was so bad that we aren't being allowed to love a child? Why is God picking on us?
Funny, now that I have it all written out, I bet it's how lots of expectant parents feel, too, during decision making processes. Makes me feel a little bad about having these concerns, but I can't stop having them.
I know how hard it is to wait and worry and wonder if it's ever going to happen.
I've been reassured that it will. (I'll believe it when I see it!
) Someone said to me once, to one of my posts, that the only sure way to become a mom, is to keep waiting for our baby to find us. I know that much is true! I am starting to believe that when the time is right, it will happen. It so sucks waiting and wondering if it will happen at all.
I also have noticed how so often, people come on here at the end of their rope. I'm talking foster parents who've had to make the difficult decision to no longer foster a troubled child, or adoptive parents with failed matches, even failed placements... that have come on and posted in complete dispair.. And, the very next post I see by them is the exact opposite. A sudden match or placement.
Maybe that'll be your luck.. maybe you'll have to wait longer.. but keep waiting. Don't give up on yourself or your baby. We have to believe that our kids will find us.