I feel your pain!
I'm right there with you! I have a 13 month old who has been with me about 3 1/2 months. It looked like adoption was a "sure thing" but I still kept my guard up... for the first month or so...and now I'm head-over-heels! His grandmother asked for his eating/sleeping schedule yesterday and I called the caseworker first thing this morning to ask if anything had changed. She gave all indications that he would be returning to them unless something major came up in their psych. evals. This was completely different than the original picture that was painted. I have been bawling all day. I knew it was a legal risk when I agreed to take him, but it just looked so good...or I wouldn't have done it. It would be different if I knew he was in good hands...but I know too much and the thought of what he will return to kills me. I have said from the beginning that if he left that there was a reason and I would trust that it was for the best. I still believe that, but it doesn't help the pain in my heart.
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