[linda512]

I also did not want an open adoption. Because I was still grieving for the biological child I would never have, I was really only thinking about what would be best and easiest for me. I wanted a baby to appear from the air without any past or baggage.
As I have gone through the process I am coming to terms with the fact that it will be better for my child to know something about his birth family and I hope to meet his birth mother. I also am beginning to accept that adoption will be an issue for him, how big I don't know, but I have started a lifebook for him so we can talk about it openly.