[flowergoddess]

Jules,

Again, I'm so sorry you're going through this. My heart is breaking for you. Luckily for us, we already had our adopted daugher when we were introduced to this little girl. And when it was all said and done, I thought, "thank you Lord....she could have hurt my baby." I couldn't have lived with the thought of putting my child in harms way. I know I would have grown to love B equally, but that feeling was there that just wasn't right.

It's so hard when you want to be a mother so deparately. I remember feeling like I'd take any situation, so long as I could be a mother. God has something better planned for you though. We had an adoption that fell through before dd was born. I kept questioning God and greiving. A year later, I found out that the child we didn't get had major mental problems, that I, personally, would have had a hard time adjusting to. Then just 8 months later, I had my perfect daughter in my arms....perfect situation....perfect birthmother. Hindsight is definately 20/20.

It'll happen.

Contact me anytime.