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I don't want to feel ungrateful for this child but the emotions surrounding my son's adoption are still a bit raw.
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I don't think anyone would take your post as sounding ungrateful. (Though some people may have judgements; just let it roll when it happens.) Working through your fears prior to the baby's arrival shows that you not only care greatly for this child but also for the one you have placed. The work that I have done emotionally on preparing for this little one to enter the world has helped me (greatly!) with some emotions that I didn't know were "leftover" from my daughter's placement. I encourage you to keep working through these emotions; ask questions, not only of others and their experiences but ask questions of yourself. What is triggering this fear? Is it solely the genetic resemblance? Or is there more?
Consider journaling (either on the site or in a paper journal). I do both and it really, really helps.
Hang in!