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Hi Jenna! It can be very emotional having a baby post-placement. It is also the most wonderful feeling in the world when your child is placed in your arms and you are beginning the journey together as mother and child. I have had 3 children since the closed adoption placement of my daughter in 1983. I had a little of the irrational fear that lisaann57 had and wanted to get home as quickly as possible with my babies before someone could take them from me. I knew it was not a real worry but it took a long time and some counseling before I was really confident that these children were mine forever. I had a little bit of guilt with the birth of my 1st daughter post placement because it felt strange to think of raising a little girl after placing my oldest girl. I am sure its different in an open adoption like yours but I was never sure what happened to my oldest daughter and I hoped her aparents were giving her the same enormous love I felt for her and her for her siblings.
I know you will be an awesome mother and you will find amazing joy in your new son. I bet that the first time you hold your son you will feel like for the first time in life everything makes sense.
Kitti
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