[SchmennaLeigh]

For those who have had a child post-placement, please please give me some input into what holding my son is going to feel like. Because I'm on all sorts of freak-out levels right now.

The nursery is almost finished. (If the blasted changing table would just get here.) And it feels WEIRD to sit in the nursery, rock in the chair and think, "In less than two months, there will be a child here with me. Not only will there be a child; he will be mine."

I'm having trouble grasping the fact that he will be coming home from the hospital with me/us. Don't read into that as I'm not excited: I am ecstatic. I can't wait until he can kick me from the outside. But there are moments/days when it feels kind of surreal. A very "been-here-done-this" type of feeling, as though a part of my brain just simply expects that I will go to the hospital, give birth and come home alone again.

I know these feelings aren't completely off the wall because I've heard some of you speak of them before... and I guess I'm just looking for support.