[Beaglepup]

I know what you mean. And I think we are both normal! I work full-time from home and just went back to work 3 weeks ago. It is SO very difficult. I have a sitter that comes 3 mornings a week, I take Mila to my mom's one day a week and the other day I have her here and work around it. I really want to be a total stay at home mom, but the finances won't allow for it.

From what my other 'mom' friends have told me, we just have to somehow try to not feel guilty. Like you, I want some alone time, but would be miserable without her as well. It's a delicate balance that I'm not sure you ever truly get.

Granted we've only been home for 3.5 months, so who knows what the future holds.

I just think you have to understand that it's ok to feel the way you are feeling. We have been having issues with Mila not sleeping at night [she used to sleep wonderfully] so I'm very much on edge and bite my DHs head off all the time. We have to try and somehow not stress about some of the household stuff. We won't die if the house isn't spotless. However, the clutter is what get's me stressed. Another area I just have to learn to deal with.

Good luck with everything. Try to get more rest instead of staying up late maybe. IT may put things in a new perspective.