Personally I feel you should do what's right for you and sit your husband down to tell him how you feel. There's nothing wrong with how you're feeling plus it it is a very personal thing. I don't know what it's like to have any more children after placement but if I had I would have liked to have had two ... that's my own personal choice. However it wasn't meant to be nor do I know how I would have felt if I'd had even one more child.
Take a deep breath and if necessary show your husband what you have written.
Pip
